It is not sadness that bothers me anymore But it is a memory The person I can still feel In my mind's naïvety
It's not the panic attacks that I fear But the trails, it leaves For I can feel them Long after they cease to exist
Oh my mind What more she can take It has been three years Since my first attack
It's not the life that I'm afraid of For I've lost my feelings Even sadness was a part of me Until it got relived
It's not death that knocks at my doorstep For I'm dead inside I've become a rock Without love, without emotions
Oh my body How many times more Do I have to tell you Not to cut yourself?
It's not heaven that I seek When I'm dead you know For I was not much of help, here in my youth In Heaven, I'll be old
I think its to hard to describe What I'm feeling right now It's not pain or the strain But I'm defeated somehow
Oh my soul How much time More Can you hold?
If this was a war Against time and tide I've lost it My friend, my dear Life
I do not have any ambition anymore For I know now, they are nightmares I've spilled my blood, than I can stand Again to fight on
Oh my pains You have lost your power to make me cry For I've lost the meaning And the purpose Of this very life
There are enemies marching From North and from South Frontiers of East and West Have made me death bound
Now only a miracle can save me A miracle, in my life A touch of emotions That can paint my sky
Oh my imaginations Where are you Those who used to soar Above the cloud?
I've lost my colours I've lost my life Yet I'm breathing Trying to stay alive
Oh my memories My Sweet many of them For you have faded My very existence